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Monday, February 09, 2009
tangled web we spin

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hey, there once again, it's been a really long time since i've been here, droping by just to say hello seems like a difficult task right now, with all the time in the world, but no empty space to fill.
okay i think you might not understand what i'm actually saying. because here between me and you, i don't even know what i'm saying.

let me guess, you have problems too? so do i.
we all have problems in this world, none can comprehend the amount of stress we deal under, but recently, i thank my luck and hard work for bringing me all this small joyfuls in life, no matter how hard it gets, no matter how life seems like it's against you, you always know that it will get better somehow.
to nad, maybe life is unfair right now to you, but you will always know, you can punch me in the face, and i'll take the blow fully, but not before you tell me what is really hidden behind you, everyone has secrets, everyone will have their breaking point. trust me, i've been to the breaking point once and i think i'm pathetic.

let me list down all the pathetic-ness i've felt throughout the year,
-no boyfriends for the whole of my entire life
-never been the top scorer of anything
-dissappoint my parents in everything i do
-felt like shit
-lost friends i loved.
-gave up on myself at one point.
-did i mention i was pathetic?

okay since all my air has cleared, now i'll list down all the blessings that i've gotten.
-got into landscape architechture
-run a small business on my own
-achieved many great things
-realised that i can do it
-revived myself from the shit phase
-and had good times, and memories through the rough times we overcame

and that is the best part of my life, but one thing i regret now....

is that i never spent enough time with my family.