i'm all better now, and all i'm missing is everything that i've let go during tht stage i've been through. i've alot to explain, but i'm halfway there. let this be my last please. i don't wan to feel that again. ever. it sucks to have to lose so much for that one thing you feel the most. i've lost too much to say a thing. i see it in your eyes that i've changed. i've changed and that really sucked. i'm trying to accept the fact that it's me who did this first. "why is it that all you love do this to you. leave you stranded in the midst of oblivion when all you needed was for them to be there". hopefully mawai will tell the true tale and i'll be better again.

for now i'll cope. but just know, it's just the beginning.