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Thursday, July 03, 2008
bawling my eyes out.

maybe i'm running away, maybe i'm afraid.
i can't stand how life has changed.
for i am now, thinking with my head, to protect the ones i love instead.
how can one be so selfless, to his own

i'm afraid to cry, i'm afraid to laugh,
god help me now, take me, engulf.
take me as a whole, for i broke this.
using my heart was hard,
but using my head is harder instead.

maybe if i had some courage, to take something else in my own hands, will i be different?

as i speak to you i shed my tears, for i didn't hold back to the blur...
as eyes that lie, have many secrets to tell,
i cnt break your heart when it is already broken,
but not make it worse i can...
for this day is the saddest day,i could ever imagine
for what reasons i may not tell.
but god help me, i'm lost in my thoughts.
He'll shed light one day.
i'll be good, and i'll wait.
can i speak this train of thoughts to you, because the playhouse has been broken in two. i had tried to put it back with superglue, but what else can i do?
i'll just staple it onto you.

this heart in two.
dont worry, i'm fine now.
trust me,
Not.